Studying. Studying. Eating. Studying. Watching an episode of Grey's Anatomy. Studying. Finally at 3:30am...sleep
11:45 (alarm does not go off but I get up anyway.)
I look around at how meaningless Finals weeks is. It consumes my life. And I allow it to. I study all day. I take a nap for an 1hr and 30 mins. I eat.
I study until my friend walks in. She has seen the light. HAVE NO EXPECTIONS. When you have huge expectations, you also set yourself up for huge disappointment.
Happiness=Satisfaction divided by Desires
And it actually made sense to me. Life are full of small processes. Little moments that matter more than the overall bigger moment. Nothing matters more than this moment right here. This moment while you are reading this blog, or watching television or eating or just observing the world around you. This moment is the only one that matters.
It's sad that I discovered that nothing matters more than this moment hours before my final but you know what: who cares? I am going to put all my energy and effort into this moment and into every moment because you never know when it might be your last.
It makes sense to me. I feel like I have achieved something. And so...no more studying for me. I am going to be spontaneous and just hope that I know what my professor has taught me for the past semester. Politics. Politics. Politics.
And if I fail, the world and everything in it will be ok.
I agree finals are a big headache! I think we even dream of studing because that's all we do and focus on!..I also belive you should go out and have some fun, like you said be spontaneous for a day! maybe the day you do take the final you'll be more relaxed;) Just thought i'd give you a second opinion. Take care! P.S Good look on your finals!:)
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