Quotes for the New Year

This New Years has been off to an amazing roller coaster already.  Between discovering my disappointing Grade Point Average (GPA) and hearing the news that I have to resign from Student Government, I do not know what else can go wrong. I was excited for the New Year to arrive because in my naive and simple mind, I thought that the problems that existed before would no longer exist. Silly me...I should have known better. And some part of me knew that the problems I had would not automatically disappear but I wanted my fairy tale to be so real and true. (sighs) Fooled me.

A good thing that I discovered was that I got accepted into a conference that is taking place in California this year. I am super excited because this is a conference that I have heard has made a huge impact on other students life. So, without high hopes, I hope the same happens to me. I want a wake up call. From what, you may wonder? I DONT KNOW!  But a change definitely needs to happen. I want to discover what I have lost in the last few months and what I have gained. I know that this discovery is not going to happen on my own but I want to surround myself around people who know and care about me. So, this journey of self realization can happen a bit smoother than it has been going.

The song that is playing on my computer now is Photographs by Rihanna and it is quite depressing. I do not want to look at only what I have from my past. I want to see an honest future. But when I  am pushed against a wall, I am forced to be selfish and defensive. I refuse to be in any friendship or relationship or encounter where I feel like I have to behave that way.This blog is a little spiel that is helping me be a bit more genuine to myself and to others. Bri Bri said to me today  that I can not have a honest relationship with her, if I can not have an honest relationship with other people. How legit is that? My relationship with other people reflect how my relationship is going to be with her...when I first heard it, I agreed with her. But now after thinking  it over, I do not know if there is such a  strong correlation between my relationship with her and my relationship with other people...hmmmm...

Quote of the day" I am tired of running, let's walk for a minute." by Nelly Furtado in Promiscious Girl